YEEAAH. OKAAAY. Yeeeah.
For those not in the know, this is a reference to the Chapelle Show. Dave Chapelle is a genius, I love that show. I am currently tivo-ing all episodes I missed. Who could watch the Charley Murphy true stories about Rick James and not laugh? I challenge you. In particular, I like the moment from the life of Lil John.
Yeeahhh! Okkayy.
The first epidose of the Kamikaze squirrel available online as a podcast now. Subscribe in itunes!
I just went through a shoulder surgery, which kind of took me by surprise in the amount of time it will take to recuperate, and I am a little bit bummed out. But the process, though slow, is one that cannot be rushed. I must take it one day at a time, and do only what the pt trainer outlined for me. Those of you who know me well know that it’s hard for me to place limits of any kind on myself, and external limits, forget about it!
Thank God for Scott, he has really helped me through this rough patch. The commonplace activities, the ones we go through every day, are simply wonderful when compared to not having that mobility. Joni Mitchell never lies – you don’t know what you’ve got ’til its gone.
Just the other day, I was taken my surprise at these limitations. I am driven by beauty, in sound, color, paintings, photographs. I am driven to paint, draw, and make music, do animations, and that’s why I love producing videos and DVDs, it lets me merge all those elements together. I knew I wouldn’t be able to airbrush or paint on canvas for a while, but I never imagined not being able to take pictures.
I spotted this huge squirrel in a tree; it was like some miracle that the tiny branches were able to take the weight of the little critter. I immediately darted for my camera, but then I suddenly realized that - I couldn’t just pick up my camera and shoot this image. My camera is a professional grade unit and heavy. I need two hands for this! Scott came to the rescue, and shot the picture for me.
I keep telling myself, I’m still a photographer even if I am not taking pictures right now. And in 3 months, when this has passed, I will never forget this passing time of inability and will hold dear to my heart the importance of taking action whenever the time is right. I will never again take for granted the simple act of raising my camera, adjusting the focus, and snapping that picture. I will take joy in the moment, and feel the bliss of the doing, the happiness of fully participating in the moment of being.
Why do people have to populate the web, and my blog, with all their CRAP? Sometimes I wonder about the basic nature of man, his abilities to destroy and to create seem to topple to the destructive side more often than not. Why - is it because it’s far easier to destroy or break down what has been created than it is to theorize and create something new?
So I get busy sometimes, and occasionally it really is like I am in some cocoon, building and rebuilding the basis of myself in a sanctuary of comfort and blissful solitude. People who really know me well don’t take offense, they are aware that sometimes I am not seen or heard from in months. The past two weeks or so, I was going through some healing time. I refer to this as my down time of peaceful bliss, if you will. I was not focused on this BLOG. Imagine my surprise when I logged in the other day.
First, let me apologize to any reader I had no idea that comments were just automatically posting (a setting in word press that I quickly remedied). Suffice it to say, every lame ass over the top ridiculous post was there unbeknownst to me. Of the 60 or so comments posted to my blog, only one was related to the contents of my blog and only one was decent and did not contain profanity or some ‘invitation’to porn.
I don’t care about what people do, their business is private. I do object to these posts. Who do these people think they are? Putting up trash on sites randomly. I certainly did not condone the contents of them and I am appalled to say the least.
But, just humankind is forever discovering that all his inventions have a dark side, so do I realize today that people are willing to use other people’s blogs as an avenue to push their agendas. Impossible to take this personally, they don’t know or even care one bit about me! Yet, this is how people are. Willing to use one another. Ruthless. From this point on, no one will ever get past the “gatekeeper“ that is how it will be!!!
I love to be creative. I kind of live for it. Lately I have been doing some really wild writing, painting, and drawing. It’s like I’m welcoming back an old friend that I have not spoken to in years. I’m channeling beauty through my eyes and out my hands. But there is definitely a higher energy frequency coming out of me lately. I can feel it building up to the point where it may change me forever. Has anyone ever felt that? I don’t know if I am the only one.
I have to get this out, or I will go CRAZY. So I started painting again. Tonight, I started a piece called “The Palace of Excess” and I plan on painting a version of some more sketches. When these are finished, I will post some photos of them.
I know it’s been months since my last post. What has happened? A lot. I realized several goals and started bowling again. I made friends with the name that I used to think was horrible and I am even introducing myself as it - in combo with Leah, of course. Robin Leah. I may actually change my name to Jade. Its a real possibility that I’ll do that on a whim, but since I already wrote about it - that makes it a pre-meditated whim. Does that still count as a whim? No matter what happens, at least I have my creative spark still intact. I didn’t completely kill it when I went on that last analytical binge.
Peace and Love to ALL. Remember - You were born with potential!
Bloggin from the car….
I can’t believe i actually blogged from my old treo, but i did. it was a useless piece of drivel, and I deleted it.
I want to save the world. So, I am doing research online. What I am learning is that short bursts of fossil fuel usage are more harmful than long trips so unless I can help it – I avoid those. What I want is an electric car. low emissions and excellent for the environment.
Im not talking about the hybrids; I am talking about genuine 100 percent electric battery powered personal vehicles. There are so many high-powered forces in the way. Prohibitively high insurance rates. Impossibly slow top speeds – even a lack of community support (some places do not allow them).
Its obvious to anyone who is conspiracy minded that the powers that be just wont allow us to save the world!
Hmarumph, I can type all day about the savage inequalities of the world. I won’t. Instead, I offer you a concept - a solution. No more complaining or complacency. Apathy is deadly. Action based thought is a good place to begin.
Lets get a positive, environment friendly movement started. We all need to breathe. Let’s begin to show appreciation to our eco system by keeping the air clean. Our water responds to us and out emotions. Let us begin to show appreciation.
If enough people are pulling for electric cars that are fast enough to be driven safely and have enough battery power to get us where we want to be, the world can be a very different place in a short amount of time.
Here are some resources on electric cars:
http://www.gemcar.com/
http://www.commutercars.com/ - cool, but expensive
http://www.zapworld.com/ - better prices. Awesome electric cars
http://www.feelgoodcars.com/ - this is nice
http://www.elec-car.com/ - a distributor page
http://www.myersmotors.com/ - Myers motors.
It does not take a genius to notice that things are heating up in the world. Like everyone else, I use electricity and gas for fuel. Until recently, I was always concerned with conservation but I never thought deeply about the effect of all those greenhouse gasses in our atmosphere.
Media like the show Too Hot Not to Handle on cable make a showcase about how important and powerful it is to make these types of changes.
After watching this show, and following the links on the web site for that show. I found out about the stopglobalwarming.org website. You should check it out.
I believe that the time to act is now! Because it will take time for the efforts we make to reverse the way things are. The cumulative effect of repetitive use of fossil fuels contributed to this situation, so the cumulative effect of people trying alternative methods of travel and fuel use will eventually at least halt the negative direction things are moving in. The only way we will have a voice is to unite, because one voice alone will never be heard under the clanging of the social and economic machine that is driving the world right now. But it will take more than just signing online, it will take making purchasing decisions on a daily basis that will drive the message home - car companies and oil companies and power companies don’t care about petitions, they only care about how much money that people spend - or don’t spend - on their products.
Things are heating up but perhaps we can stop this negative turn of events. Check out the link to the stopglobalwarming.org site and join the march!
It’s been a while - but yesterday I found the inspiration I needed to push me toward finishing my book. Between major time consuming projects for Aeon, I am working on my novel. Not to mention painting the house and summer traveling. The book is now taking definite form, which is nice.
The story and characters have lived in my mind for many years, only taking smokey less-than-concrete shape when I wrote the treatment and the first draft of the screenplay [all 30 pages of it]. When I decided to expand to a full commercial length script, I found myself pouring over notes and trying to firm up back history and personality development of the characters. That’s when I decided to write the full novel, finally allowing these people in the story to have a fuller, richer experience.
At certain points, one of the characters will defy my original concept of who and what they are. Changes, like a summer breeze, sweep over me. Opening my mind, I embrace these changes. The story is evolving.
Once the book is complete, I have only to translate it back into a screenplay. There is much to look forward to.
It’s an amazing thing - the nature of perception. It’s almost as complex as the mind/soul or mind/cognition question. The answer has never been given! Because the very nature of the questions tells us our limitations in the physical realm prevent a stong, provable conclusion. But - OK - I’m convinced that there is an answer, and I am trying to find it with that part of my spirit/mind that can have faith. In the mean time, I am looking at the world, making every effort to sense the things that I need to sense in order to make that connection.
So - I am looking at everyday things, but I am looking at them up close, under a mircoscope because I want to really see them. Really know that they are made of, how they are shaped, how they appear. Some things are amazing - and stunning. I posted images I captured with a digital microscope.
Check out the mini-web page. It’s at http://www.oshell.com/microscope/ - and the link in this blog is called - Things Up Close
-Leah
